Showing posts with label addiction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label addiction. Show all posts

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Hypomanic, addicted to caffeine now, what's next?

Hi, my dear friends!
For the last 4 days i was not writing, working so hard, and developed a new thing - caffeine through coffee, diet cokes, energy drinks, sugar, etc.
So, my topic is, what do we do when we hate our meds' effect and try to do anything to feel hypomanic. As I saw in the poll, handling depression is very hard, it's easier when you and your partner is full of joy. Not manic and not depressed, but a functioning hypomanic.
I love this feeling. It has been a vicious cycle for me: hard drugs, sober, extreme exercising, prescription pills, food, planning/scheduling, puking, drinking wine, traveling, shopping, taking pictures, I can even obsess over the Internet, now it's Mafia Wars on tagged and caffeine. it never ends. It only takes another form. Even a healthy thing like exercise becomes an obsession. Each "thing" lasts from a couple days to months until i get bored with it and wait to find something new. I heard the same from my clients who have Dual diagnosis with Bipolar and Addiction. Anyone wants to share their vicious cycles,l or give me an advice or support?